Today

I can't wait for the day I can hold a baby...our baby...in my arms and tell them about how important they are to us. And to God.
We've fought so hard to have a baby here on earth with us and there are times I wonder if it will ever happen in this life. It may be pessimistic to think those thoughts or have those doubts but they are real and we have to deal with them.
I have faith, I really do. Some days I don't feel like I do. But today, today I have faith. Today, I'm not ready to accept the thought or idea that we may never have children of our own. Young spirits that we've been trusted with to teach and protect. I'm not ready to accept that. I'm not ready to stop fighting for that day where I get to rock our baby and tell them about how much we love them.
I'm not ready to give up.
I'm not ready to stop believing in miracles.
Today I have faith.
Today I believe.