A positive for every negative

I've discovered that I have a really hard time when other people complain about being a parent. I just want to scream, "DO YOU KNOW HOW LUCKY YOU ARE TO BE A PARENT!?!" but I don't.  I just keep it inside and keep it to myself. I understand that being a parent is hard work maybe not to the full extent that actual parents do but I do know that it's hard. Caring for another human being (or multiple humans) is probably the most emotionally, physically, and spiritually taxing thing there is. And while I understand that sometimes it feels better to complain (and that's okay) it just gets hard to listen to. I often wonder if I would be willing to take on all the stress and hardships that these constant haters of parenthood endure just so I can experience being a parent. Being a mother.

Again I don't want anyone to walk away thinking that I don't understand that being a parent is a hard thing all I'm saying is that there must be a better way of expressing your emotions and handling your stress than having such a dark almost regretful attitude towards you kids.

I guess for me it's important to recognize that even though things are hard there are still multiple good moments/memories/experiences/characteristics that out weigh the bad.

Am I wrong there? Is that too far off?

A baby in our home

My husband's sister and family are getting ready to move across the country for graduate school and in effort to help them we offered to host a sleepover for our 2 year old nephew. He's my husbands little side kick and we're going to miss him terribly. Our evening entailed of a couple movies, pizza, a trip to the park, and then a bed time routine. To some this may seem insignificant but to have that young little spirit in our home is such a blessing. Obviously I'm not a parent but to be able to care for someone, watch them learn, see excitement in their eyes, hug them when they cry..it's all remarkable. For some people that are experience infetility it can be hard to be around little kids. It reminds you about how you don't have children. How you may never have children.

For my husband and I (at least at this point) it's almost therapeutic to be around kids. To have other people trust you with their children helps relieve the thoughts that God doesn't trust you with his children. We'll miss having our niece and nephew in our home. Sometimes I really hate change.

Now we wait

Day 7 has come and gone. Now we play the waiting game. We're waiting to see if I ovulate. We use the Basal Body Temperature method to do this. Everyday since May 11, 2012 I've been taking my temp. first thing in the morning. Before I even move I have to stick a thermometer in my mouth, wait for it to beep and then record my temp. in a notebook. Makes for a long morning when you have to pee. Ugh! I hate that part. So, when you ovulate your body temperature goes up about .4-.7 degrees. It spikes, stays consistent for a 5 days or so and then drops back down to normal. Even though I know it takes a week or so after your period ends to start ovulating, every morning I'm hoping it'll just jump. It's a waiting game. A horrible waiting game.

No baby this time

I started my period. Definitely not pregnant this time around. It totally sucks.