So after my emotional melt down before husband came home I decided that I didn't feel like my doctor's office (not my doctor-she's great! But unfortunately I have the middle man nurses to go through) was supporting me when I expressed my desire to stop taking Clomid so I asked for the information about the fertility specialist that they would refer me to if I didn't ovulate this next go around.
I took matters into my own hands and contacted them myself. Holy cow! I haven't even been there and I already feel so comfortable with them. I liked my last doctor but the Utah Fertility Center is WONDERFUL! I've only spoken with people on the phone but I already feel supported. They truly are advocating to find the best way to give us what we want...a baby. The nurses spent a good 30 minutes with me on the phone asking me questions, letting me explain what I know I do/don't feel comfortable with, then they explained how their center works and what they feel is important. By the end of the phone call I had a consultation scheduled for this next Wednesday, all the paperwork I would need to have filled out beforehand, directions on how to transfer my medical records, and an idea of how our appointment would go.
They emphasized that they believe fertility isn't only MY or HUSBAND'S problem but that it was OUR struggle and that they ask that both members of the couple be at the appointments and be on the same page throughout the entire process. They told me about how we'll meet with the doctor at the consultation, they'll review our medical records, do an ultrasound, and then layout EVERY possible route we could take to having a baby. How awesome is that?? My last doctor was so supportive and helpful but their office wasn't on the same page. This place as a whole is on the ball. I'm thrilled to know what all our options are upfront. They don't want to waste time nor do they want to do anything that we are not comfortable with. Meaning if we say we aren't comfortable with doing Clomid again, Clomid is no longer an option.
I also took it upon myself to finally call LDS Family Services to learn more about their adoption process. I've researched things on the internet and gotten as far as I could without calling but yesterday I decided to just do it. I got a lot of great information and we have a better understanding of what the adoption process will entail. They hold Adoption Orientation meetings on the first Wednesday of every month so we'll have to wait until October to get even more information. This all works out perfectly though because we can meet with the fertility specialist, get a better idea of what our options are medically and then from there we can attend the Adoption Orientation and then make a decision about where we want to go.
Husband and I talked a lot on Friday about what we wanted to do in regards to moving forward. He's so good to me and helps me come to grips with things in such a supportive way. We decided that we're taking it one step/day at a time. We'll go to our appointment, see what it has to offer, and then take the next day as it comes.
Basically, we're going to just keep moving forward. When I first found out I didn't ovulate I was (and still am a bit) so sad. I thought we had taken a million steps backward when in reality we hadn't. It was just a closed road and now we're taking a detour. We're going to keep asking God for the direction we need and when options come up we're going to make a decision take it to the Lord and if we don't feel like we're being told to stop we're going to move that way.
It's kind of like a crazy car trip where you come to an intersection, say "Left or right?", look both ways and go whichever ones looks nice. Sometimes what looks nice is completely lame and other times you find paradise.
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